well went to work today . charlie saw me . and as usual, asumes all these bad things from me .

any whos , fark tired from work todays D=

luckily they let me off earlyyyy .

fuck, i have 27 hours of work next week, follwed by 36hours the next . ooft =="

oh well, it gets my mind off things .

i was thinking to transfer work . maybe that'll keep my mind off everything forever . :)

woot schools out =D

im relieved i got my school certificate . cs for once , i think its not that bad ^^"

neways , all i have set for these holidays is to work hard and earn heaps of money :D

LOL .

im guna be a richer than vivienne some day [:

neways yesterday's outing was awesome ladies . thanks for inviting me out . i know i dog many of our outings , but i hope i can make it up to you guys . LOL

us retarts running around in the city with our semi formal dresses [:

hope we can do this again sometimes .

+ ill miss you ivy , hope you have a shit time in your new scshool so that you'll come running back to us !

its either, i trust him or i like him too much to bother him, or ive lost feelings, or i actually dont care.

hmm

i dont know whats wrong with me .

sometimes alli wana do is rage at him, but maybe thats just to attract his attention .

but after i say those things i feel upset cs all he says is fine do whatever you want, or i shouldve never talked to you .

i dont know what i want .

maybe its just best to forget . i dont want to be dated out of sympathy .

i want to be dated cs he actually likes me, not cs he feels sorry for me . i guess this is the reason why at times i seem to try my best to push him away .

sighs . i dont know anymore .