sorry, i couldnt say anything to you, i was scared. i know at the end of a conversation i'd just be upset with everything , im trying to 4get everything for your sake. but at times its just difficult, cause everything i do, remind me of you.

i really do miss you, i wish you were with me right now .

i hate myself for doing this to you. if i could take back ever meeting you, i would, just to make you happy .i know that you love all this, being without me .

but sometimes i really cant take it anymore. and i just wana go psycho and get mad with everything .

its not you, its just me . all i thought bout today was what you said to me, and how ignorant i am, to not even reply back . i duno, i just kept wishing that you'd come knocking on my door or call me and have our late night conversations till i fall asleep like we always do. i really miss it .

urgh .sighs, i am so fucking urgh now. i have a 5am shift, and cant even fucking sleep .

cant stop thinking about it. and all i do right now is rip superglue off my hands.

im such a sad person =.=

i couldnt find pva glue, so got super glue .

it feels good.

feels like im ripping my skin off .

neways, off to fb once again ,.

laters .