fuck, feeling like crap .
duno what to do . far out , i just realised this week how stupid i was and how much it was a mistake.
far out this week, ive never felt so much jealousy . i feel like shit cs sometimesi think he doesnt do stuff like that to me .
far out .
ive been feeling so mad, and i feel so shit cs i took it out on shen yesterday . esp on his 18th birthday.
he ended up feeling shit and upset on his birthday . fucking how low can i get .
far out . i just feel so annoyed with everything and cant think straight . i dont understand , what is happening to me..
sighs . neways i caught myself in a bad situation, and now all im hoping is that im that last person he was talking about .
even thoughi k now its not me, im still hoping .
urgh . work now . laters x