alli wanted was to blurt out all my problems to you whilst on the fone today .

even though im upset and its all cs of you , you're still the only person i feel i want to share everything with , my thoughts, feelings.

even though you repetitively asked whats wrong or why are you upset, i never wanted you to stop. just like everyother time , i always feel happy knowing oh, you're worried about me, you wana know everything about me .

i pucked up the courage to tell you , so i called out your name. as i called out yur named serverals times , you werent there .

i hung up and you enver called back .

sometimes i dont understand why im like this but i always hoped you'd be at least the person who would be able to put up with me .

im so lost at times andi dont know what to do . i tried doing something nice today cs all iwanted to do is play together and we ended up fighting .

i duno, i feel as if im the biggest let down and that im never guna be good enough .

i dont understand , am i really that boring , sometimes i just wana be heard and asked whats wrong, but i guess its just wasting your time.

sometimes i just feel i shouldnt be with you anymore , i feel like im not worth your time and care .

i know that if we're apart id have a sense of relief that i can do no more damage to what i've already done, but the truth is, i'd be upset and hurt deep down .

i dont know what to do anymore .

i know if i shut up and lsiten and not give my opinions it'd make us better and you happier, but it wouldnt make us closer nor stronger . the thing is, im not like that, i dont like listening to people, ive had enough of everyoneelse so maybe thats why i rebel against you . but then again at the end i regret it . and i cant keep things to myself, im just not that type of person.

sometimes i feel its time for you to move on and leave me once and for all .

but thats just my thinking right .

i dont know what to do anymore .