aish . i duno, alli want to do is tell him everything , but i just cant .

it's something id just get told off for, and make the relationship even worst .

im feeling very alone and depressed atm , andn ow to think back , when im upset, or write im upset, the people to ask me if im okay is my friends .

i write blogs at times to tell charlie everything but it just doesnt work , it just doesnt get to him .

i just want him to confort me right now, and no one else , but it wouldnt ever happen ..

all i can do right now is wait for him, and read that he's going to get off, simple cause i take too long to reply . not even asking or worried if im okay or what i was doing .

all i can see on my screen is "you take a long time to reply so im going to go off" "bye ". just dont know anymore .

mm , tomorrow will be a brand new day , hopefully it'd be a million times better than today .